Dear Bloggie

Dear Bloggie, i miss you so much. sorry cause i'm leaving you for so long ;]

well, so far, i enjoy my life with my FRIEND, FAMILY, and, DEAR :] thanks cause u guys shine my life. ♥ ♥ ♥ i'm nothing without you guys :D 

let's talk bout what had happen to me, bloggie ;D

well, so far i'm happy. no more sad :)) but sometime, my mood will change to bad :\ i dont know why. i'll scold people with no reason. maybe i'm too afraid to lose someone that i love AGAIN. yahh. i'm afraid dear. soo afraid *sob sob :'(  

i still remember on 7 Sept 2010 :'(  bloggie, that day is my worse day ever. i don't believe that our relationship end on that day :'\ i'm speechless. so speechless dear :'(  day by day, i cry my heart out and pray. oh GOD only YOU know how i feel. i try to hurt myself. i force myself to move on. but it NEVER work. i lose my hope and faith toward him. he replaced me with other girl. it hurt me deep inside when i heard about it. i force myself to smile in front of my family and friends. they give me support like a lot of support. everyone told me to move on. i kept on trying, then i make it. i've get over him and start my new single life happily with my friends <3 :) still remember the day before 03 Oct 2010 :] i enjoy my day so much till i don't remember anything about him. which make me happy like hell :D on 03 Oct, my unexpected day had came :\ on 2 o'clock or something, i received a text massage from HIM :') i don't believe that he'll text me. my heart scream like hell :'D but i kept wondering why he came back to me. where's his new GF? but who cares right? is not my prob. so, i ask him why he came back after i get over him? anyhow, that time me and my babe hang out at Parkson. :) but i don't expect that he'll text me on that day. don't believe it. back to the story. then my babe n i drove to Marina to release our tension together. he say he want to met me. so i ask him to go there. then he came with he's friend which also my closest friend in school. i was so nervous. he ask about my life, i'm fine or not. how's my family, studies and so on. all of the sudden, he say, he want me back. he cannot live without me. i admit that i can't accept him at first. but he begging for a last change. well, i gave him a very last change to prove that he rally love me and whatever. 

things back to normal, but i still afraid to lose him though. 

:)